The Long Haul and the Re-boot

Leave a comment

September 4, 2015 by Darlene McC

Urban Amazon will turn 5 years old this month – the first post being titled with a Cake Lyric (facepalm).  It was back when I wanted to be “internet famous”, but my partner in crime had moved to LA and I was without an outlet.  I felt silly as “a YouTuber”; I’m too self-conscious being myself on camera.  I wanted a place to log and be and share.  So I spat this out.

In the course of this blog’s life I regained my athletic pursuits, became a professional trainer at one of the best companies I’ve ever worked for, published articles, trained some awesome clients, and grew a bunch; like, as a person.  I added contributors, and some dropped off; did a few Whole30s before anyone knew what that was, and tried a few new things.

And then I stopped posting.  I got busy and felt like my blog had lost it’s identity.

18 months ago I transitioned out of being a full time trainer; first my responsibilities shifted to teaching new trainers how not to break anyone, and then oversight for a team of nearly 50.  I’m “the manager” now; which has come with it’s own odd sense of growth and reflection.

It was about that time that Urban Amazon scaled down, and despite my best intentions has remained twisting on the side.  My former contributors moving on to other projects and the site itself rolled back to it’s bare bones.

In our 20s we “creative types” start our projects with lofty objectives ~ ways to monetize our passions and schemes for what we see our inventive children growing into.  There was a lot of failure; some of it I didn’t take as well as I might have liked.  In my early 30s now I look back and wonder how I ever had the energy for so much content generation!  But also see humor in how I tried to snowball everything into avalanches.  I think I’ve learned in the process of “growing up” creatively to appreciate what I’m making for it’s own sake.  Something I wasn’t even considering in the years before this space existed.

Now it’s the long haul.  The steady dripping water that carves caverns; hollowing out the mountain from the inside, recreating the landscape.  Two years ago I wanted to roll back to where I’d started: my little blog where I recorded my adventures, shared my struggles, and gave advice about how to live better, move better, and feel better.  Guess all I needed to do was stop writing for a while and feel like no one was paying it much mind anymore.

So this is my re-boot post.  I miss UA and I want to write again.  About fitness; about the struggle to care for yourself and one another; about what it’s like to want to live wildly, but be chained to a keyboard for far too many hours.  Strategies for breaking free but still living responsibly, and the challenge of loving beer but not my high body composition.

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

w

Connecting to %s

Instagram

So much of life is in how we transition. In if we allow ourselves a process, get stuck, or judge ourselves in moments of deep change. If we can find calm in our storms and not cling as things slip past us. - - - I've been home from Koh Phanang, Thailand for 4 days & mostly sleeping. This beautiful trip rocked me and my soul. I've come back with clarified questions and a fire inside, ready for the exciting changes to come. - - - Has something ignited your fire recently? What changes are on your horizon that you're hoping to rise to? Share in the comments. - - #throwbackthursday #tt #kohphagan #thailand #wanderlust #wanderwoman #sunset #beachvibes #beachlife #zenbeach #beautiful #meditation #selfgrowth #personaldevelopment #selfcare #growandchange
Travel is a huge challenge for #spoonies - for those with hEDS it's a shock to the nervous system and a real struggle. I'm only 1/3 of the way into my 40 hour haul from Thailand to New York and was already starting to feel the effects of the flight. Dizzy, nauseous, disoriented. What's a #zebra to do? . . . I applied all I've learned the last month with @luna_alignment_yoga of course! If my nervous system is the problem, what if I use movement to help? First I got a massage and took a shower, because that always helps. Then I combined @yogigypsynomad and my finals her use of #sunsalutation to stimulate the autonomic nervous system, and then I added some more forward folds and gentle twists to calm it back down. Finished up with 7 min of pranayama to balance the sympathetic and parasympathetic systems. . . The result? I'm hungry! When those with hEDS fly we experience gastroparesis - a stalled digestive system. Thats why the nausea. Being hungry means the practice worked! Any spoonies out there who want to know more DM me. . . What do you think @talswissa is that intelligent practice? Would Anu be proud? 😉 . . . #movementismymedicine #spoonievictory #spooniewarrior #myillnessdoesnotdefineme #yogaeverywhere #lunaalignmentyoga #alignmentyoga #alignmentfirst #trainsmarter #selfcare #selfcareisselflove #learningtolovemyself #hEDS #EhlersDanlos #EhlersDanlosSyndromes
Being the middle of 5 crazies. And I wouldn't have it any other way. . . #nationalsiblingday #wildchild #middlechild #threes #lifeinthrees #wanderlust #farfromhome #homesick
It's important to be a supportive friend - and when @alliolson23 and I find the rest of the @luna_alignment_yoga TTC crew on the beach the support was in full force! . . . This trip has taught me so much about myself. Things I was scared to try that I can now see I'm capable of, that I can learn to trust more deeply and open up, and apparently that I can FLY! . . . 10 more days in Koh Phanang and trying to live fully in them. . . #kohphagan #thailand #200yttc #200ytt #acroyoga #trysomethingnew #spoonievictory #spooniewarrior #spoonie #iamnotmyillness #eds #EhlersDanlosSyndromes #alignmentyoga #challengeyourself #strongissexy #strongwoman
It's a full moon tonight on Koh Phanang but the stars are out early. . 📸 @paulinedemuynck . #kohphagan #secretbeach #nude #selflove #takearisk #myillnessdoesnotdefineme #bigisbeautiful #thailand #fullmoon #bluemoon #srithanu #beachlife #beautiful #beachvibes #selfacceptance
I came to Thailand to shift my perspective - today we took that literally! My first full inversion! . . . Conventional medical "wisdom" will tell you I can't do this - that people with Ehlers Danlos Hypermobility Type aren't getting any better. The first two weeks of Alignment Yoga Teacher Training have focused on what I figured out to survive: with proper alignment and strength the body can stabilize. Strength is the name of my game! . . . No doubt there are some zebras and spoonies out there struggling. To you I say: it's been 11 years since my diagnosis and I've come lightyears since then. Dig deep. Keep learning. Never surrender (except in meditation). . . . And I still have 2 weeks more! 🙌 . . . #EhlersDanlosSyndromes #EhlersDanlos #hEDS #spoonievictory #spoonie #spooniewellness #yogi #inversion #headstand #yoga #200ytt #alignmentyoga #lunaalignmentyoga @luna_alignment_yoga #strong #strongwoman #kohphagan #selflove #selfcareisselflove #nevergiveup
%d bloggers like this: